I said goodbye to Sebastion (My avatar)

**craythegray** · 09-22-2010, 04:05 PM

I had to make a very hard choice today.

Sebastion my avator is a very old cat. Her back hips have been going bad now for around a year. This morning when my wife and I were getting ready to leave for work we noticed that she was laying in a pool of her own piss.

It is time.

Time to say goodbye to a very close friend.

Time to say goodbye to a part of my life that has been with me though some of the hardest times I have ever seen.

Time to say goodbye to a animal who has been by my side during my homelessness, several bad break-ups, college, army, marrage, and my children.

Time to let her go to help her get away from the pain.

I know it is the right thing to do but I can not help but feeling like a very bad person at the moment.

BUT I know it is time to say goodbye.

I made the appointment to have her put to sleep. It will be in less than two hours. I have given her a great last meal with her favorites. I have taken the babies down to say goodbye.

I will hit send and walk out the door.

**Markous** · 09-22-2010, 04:10 PM

Shit i got something in my eye.

At least she will be in peace

**Obijuan Kenobe** · 09-22-2010, 04:27 PM

Wow, she's been there and back again with you. That's a real friend.

You are doing her a service by letting her go to sleep. There is no reason for it to be any other way when it can be like this.

obi

**stdlrf11** · 09-22-2010, 04:44 PM

Sorry to hear buddy, but you are doing the right thing.

**Stabber** · 09-22-2010, 04:48 PM

Sorry to hear! She loved knives too!

**El Gringo** · 09-22-2010, 05:05 PM

It is a sad thing.

**ratstuph** · 09-22-2010, 05:11 PM

I've been down a similar road, as have others, and I usually second-guessed myself wondering if I should have waited. I shouldn't have waited, and I did the right thing--but it was still really awful.
You have my condolences.
all da best,
rats...

**craythegray** · 09-22-2010, 06:10 PM

Thanks to your kind words all.

She passed away at 5:55.

It took three shots since she kept closing her veins on the Dr.

Stubborn cat to the end.

RIP dear one.

Thanks Iceman for letting me a nice deal on a knife. It will be her memorial blade!

**begreen61** · 09-22-2010, 06:16 PM

Im so sorry for your loss,Its a bad day for pets My very good friend call me this morning to tell me his dog was hit by a car at 6;30 this morning.I dont even want to think about loseing my 2 dogs their my life,again Im so so sorry,

**craythegray** · 09-22-2010, 06:28 PM

Originally Posted by Stabber

Sorry to hear! She loved knives too!

Yes she did!

She had a good eye too!

**firepowerfox** · 09-22-2010, 06:54 PM

I am so sorry dear, I swear I would rather get shot in the leg then the heartache of losing a beloved friend and pet. A memorial knife is a wonderful idea. I had one done for Kalua my caracal from Cote knives in Ontario. It is a subhilt with an African theme (ivory, african blackwood) since one of the places caracals come from is Africa. The sheath has his image carved on it. Your kitty will always be part of you and the memories will last forever. You can write down your memories of her when you are ready and maybe put all your pics together in memorial album. Hugs to you from Penny

**craythegray** · 09-22-2010, 07:21 PM

Originally Posted by firepowerfox

I am so sorry dear, I swear I would rather get shot in the leg then the heartache of losing a beloved friend and pet. A memorial knife is a wonderful idea. I had one done for Kalua my caracal from Cote knives in Ontario. It is a subhilt with an African theme (ivory, african blackwood) since one of the places caracals come from is Africa. The sheath has his image carved on it. Your kitty will always be part of you and the memories will last forever. You can write down your memories of her when you are ready and maybe put all your pics together in memorial album. Hugs to you from Penny

Sounds like a nice knife!

Unfortunately after I paid for the sleep, cremation, and urn I didn't have much left for a knife.

Iceman here at the forums (Who is awesome) helped me out with a knife that Sebastian and I have been eying for awhile.

Gent's Fighter - Green Canvas Micarta, red white red spacers

Sebastian liked knives one of two ways. BIG and FAT or Fast and Sexy!!!

**Jim L.** · 09-22-2010, 09:50 PM

I'm very sad for your loss. I've been there as well. My wife and I had a cat for just at twenty years when we lost her last year. I'll send some smoke both yours and her way.

Jim L.

**Parker** · 09-22-2010, 10:09 PM

Cray, I'm very glad you and Sebastion had a chance for that last meal. Your retrospective made me smile.

Mina, our kitty of about 17 years, she hid it from me until the very end, she was just dehydrated entirely.

I agreed with the vet that we could rehydrate her, and then she'd die badly over a couple weeks, she was old, not eating and had just come to her end, or I could have them give her the shot. I chose what still is clearly the right way.

I swear that after seven years or so I still see her in the basement from time to time, always out of the corner of my eye. Not so much since we started using her food dish for Ginger, our third dog, and I brought her water glass up and use it for margaritas.

But I still see her on occasion. It's an old house, likely a few spooks in it.

Travel well, Edged Kitty. Her last knife, very slick. I had one of those, I liked it a lot. I believe it is now with some of Tubtar's acquaintances in Iraq or A-Stan. It does move well in the hand.

**50calmike** · 09-22-2010, 10:49 PM

It is indeed a sad day when you have to make the decision to help a loved one into the next life.
My favorite cat had come down with renal failure, we tried the IV fluids, but it was all for our selfishness.
I was with her when she came into the world and when she departed. She purred gently in my arms the whole time that day.
I definitely feel your pain and wish you well in your time of mourning.
Sebastion, say hello to my friend when you see her.