And it all clicks. The path is blocked.

**LONE WOLF** · 11-03-2005, 04:16 AM

To put it in vague terms, the paths to my personal goals(as in non school shit) are blocked by a clear window, perfectly real, in a metaphorical way. You can beat against it, but it won't budge. Bureaucracy, personal problems, and most of all: Fate. Fate is my enemy, a straight path through misery, no exits until I have already passed them. Then there presence is all too obvious, but there is no turning around. A crash coarse to death. Physical or psychological, take your pick of those two choices in the fork at the end of the path. The only two possible destinations to the path of my fate. There is no success, just acceptance of psychological death; or the act of physical death. The road of fate is all too narrow. The bad, the higher ups have a path of fate like a spider web, as many options as they want. The underdog, the good, me and people like me, have the one path to destruction. Anyone who thinks that good wins in the end, that the underdog gets to the top, is blind or a liar. That is why I beleive in a supernatural force of evil, a satan of sorts. But I have my doubts about a god (or gods). Maybe evil does rule, with good just a small resistance that is being slowly crushed. In the end everyone good goes to hell, or maybe the world is turned in to a hell. Kind of like the judeo/cristion end of times in reverse.

borinquen · 11-03-2005, 04:24 AM

can you see the future?
do you have pre-cognition?
why do you have such a pessimistic view of your future?
how do you know your fate?

**LONE WOLF** · 11-03-2005, 05:16 AM

I'm pessimistic because I see assholes I have known to be assholes for years succeed. Money, girls, and perhaps the most important of all: Fame.
I am getting jerked around by my might be future employer (If they filled the space because I had a week delay in my work papers because my Dr. was not in, fine. But at least tell me. Don't jerk me around with maybes and call backs). And a ton of personal stuff, too.

Probably was a little dramatic with my post, but still, it felt good to get it out.

**Matches** · 11-03-2005, 09:09 AM

I have always known that the grass "appears" to be greener in the other guys yard, and that everyone has problems in life. I came to realize how small my problems were when I attended my last (30 yr.) high school reunion. The same people who, at the five year mark,seemed to have the great jobs, families, and the best life had to offer, were now prematurly aged, unemployed, alcoholic or drug addicted, divorced, miserable, or didn't attend due to an early death.
For thirty years, I thought my classmates were all succesful business people living the American dream. It didn't take long to find out that my problems were very small compared to the many that I once believed were in a better place than myself. When you really see what's going on, it's quite an eye opener.

**Danbo** · 11-03-2005, 10:33 AM

Stop being so negative. Things will get better. Like mentioned, when you go to your High School reunion, you'll see people you went to school with that are pathetic. When I went to my 20th reunion, most of the jocks were fat and bald. I really enjoyed seeing that, mainly because they were the assholes always picking on people. Fate has a way of evening things out, so stop worrying about stuff you can't control. Just stay positive.